I Don’t Know What to Wear!
I love clothes. I really do. I went to the London College of Fashion, I studied fashion journalism, my mother was a weaver who had her own clothing line when I was younger – it’s pretty much engrained in me to be one stylin’, profilin’ mofo. I love checking out other people’s style (unless it involves Uggs), I love fabrics, patterns, discovering designers from distant, foreign lands. You get the point – I love this shiz. And so, it has been with increasing despair over the past year that I have stared at my wardrobe and bellowed the words ‘I HAVE NOTHING TO WEAR!’ Oh sure, we’ve all done that. But I really mean it. I’ve reached a point where I hate all my clothes and am completely flummoxed as to what to do style-wise.
This is unheard of for me. I’ve always been sure of my sense of style. I’ve always known what I liked. I like dressing properly and looking well put together. So being in the position of not having all that much to wear, disliking what I do have and not knowing what I want, is really messing with my confidence and all around stylistic zen vibes.
The past few years, I’ve been a dresses and heels girl. And I love me some dresses and heels. I love looking smart and feminine. But the reality is, my lifestyle has changed considerably over the past three years. I’m now a runner, who runs a fitness website. I train pretty much every day, try out all sorts of weird and wonderful fitness classes for my site, most of my meetings involve sporting brands. I spend most of my time in Lycra and trainers. I figured since that was my new reality, I’d make sure I had some pretty stylin’ Lycra and trainers and have enjoyed playing around with that, but I don’t want that to be all I wear.
I think this happens to everyone at some point. Your style just evolves and it happens out of nowhere. All of a sudden, you hate everything you own. Life circumstances change and what you were wearing before either doesn’t fit with who you are now or it just isn’t practical.
Are you automatically supposed to know what you like as you enter each new phase of your life? It is OK not to know? I’m really struggling with what to wear in the meantime while I figure all this out. I don’t particularly care if it’s seen as fickle and I fully understand that in the grand scheme of things, there are much bigger problems in the world right now, but I gotta tell ya, it’s really messing with my confidence. Sense of style is massively important to me and feeling unsure in a department of your life that you used to be so certain about is a little scary and perplexing.
Sure, I can take to Pinterest and try to figure it out or hope that some lightening bolt of inspiration will hit me and I’ll suddenly know where to shop and what to buy. One way or another, I hope I figure it out soon. I’m driving myself nuts.